Grieving is an important part of your recovery journey.  But we might also go through a lot of anger as we grieve our loss.  Most widowed people are not aware that they are capable of such rage because they have never been this angry before. Maybe the anger is focused on the health care system, on a friend or family member, God or just at the injustice of life.  It is difficult for others to understand the intensity of the anger your feeling unless they have also lost a loved one. Anger combined with overwhelming sadness can lead to despair.  It will drain you of energy and lead you to feeling helpless and powerless to change your life.  Understanding these feelings is crucial to rebuilding your life and finding your balance.