Your emotions swing like a pendulum, from one extreme to another. Looking for ways to avoid this loneliness, you may become a "busyholic", never stopping. That way your grief can't catch up to you. If this is you, then you are running from yourself. You never take time to stop and think because you keep too busy. Eventually you will get tired, slow down and accept your alone time. When this happens, you are finally getting to the point of accepting yourself and moving on to people and things you really enjoy.