I thought the holidays were hard but nothing highlights loneliness more then New Years Eve without your husband. This is one night that I still have not figured out a way to avoid. Everything about it shouts out "couples" and its hard to go out to celebrate the beginning of a new year as a widow. For a widows first "New Year" on her own, there doesn't seem to be anything for her to look forward to and that just adds to the loneliness. But I'm here to say that you will get through it but you have to make the effort to look for positive things in your day. Be careful that negative loneliness doesn't steal all your joy.